By Barbara (Girijananda) Hess
Listening to Gurudevi Nirmalananda’s Spiritual Hunger & Fulfillment album always lulls me into my own Self.
Gurudevi chants the “Atma Shatakam” in Sanskrit, an ancient poem of six verses on liberation by Adi Shankaracharya. While the first five verses state what you are not, the sixth verse proclaims your true nature:
Chidananda rupa shivo’ham shivo’ham
My true form is the bliss of Consciousness. I am Shiva. I am Shiva.
This refrain is sung twice between each of the poem’s verses as well. This settles my mind into stillness.
“Atma Shatakam Translation,” Track 3, is Gurudevi’s spoken English translation. Her strong, compassionate voice captivates me, especially the refrain. The repeated “My true form is the bliss of Consciousness. I am Shiva. I am Shiva” draws me inside.
Gurudevi allows a subtle pause between the two instances that come after each of five verses. I linger in these pauses, settling in deeper.
As she speaks the translation of the things Shankaracharya says you are not in each of the first five verses, my mind continues to resonate with “I am Shiva.” As this slows my thinking, it also gives me focus. This is a great support while I write talks based on sutras for the meditation classes I teach. I settle in and the sutras come to life.
In Verse 6, Gurudevi speaks Shankaracharya’s proclamation of this true nature:
I am free from thought, I am the formless in form, I am the sacred power of speech . . .
My true form is the bliss of Consciousness. I am Shiva. I am Shiva.
This gives me the answer, which I’ve always longed for, to the question “Who am I?”. My form is bliss! I am Shiva. I am Shiva.
Another track is “Bhagavan Namah,” meaning “I bow to the Divine.” As Gurudevi chants in Sanskrit, I listen with a deep reverence and gratitude. I mentally bow again and again.
When I listen to this CD in the evening before bedtime, I experience it as a sweet lullaby. I’m soothed into stillness and then sleep.















