By Ashley (Tarini) Molson
Interviewed by Lori (Priya) Kenney
I was alone in my own home for the September Shaktipat Retreat. Even online, I had profound experiences. Gurudevi has no limitations.
Remarkable things happened and are continuing. Chanting had been something I felt uneasy doing. With no one listening, I sang out freely. By the end of the weekend, I had no inhibitions and was chanting loudly from my depths.
While receiving Shaktipat from Gurudevi, I found myself falling at her feet. It wasn’t me making a heartfelt or mental choice to fall. It truly felt as if I fell at her feet in full surrender. My spine was straight up, but my heart was bowing. It wasn’t something I thought myself into, it happened inside. In this moment, I fully embraced Gurudevi as my Guru.
The devotion has continued blossoming. I immediately signed up for Meditation Club so I can meditate with Gurudevi and the other Svaroopis. It wasn’t a priority before ¾ I always hit snooze. I now wake up most mornings between 3:45 and 4 am.
After Shaktipat, meditating more and spending more time with Gurudevi isn’t even a question. It’s like breathing. I want more time with Gurudevi to continue deepening my experience.
Shaktipat lit a fire that is filling me with the strength of my Sanskrit name. Tarini is one of the names of Durga. I’m feeling her strength, and it’s moving me to do things that seemed impossible before.
I own my own business and work full time. It’s intense and there’s no “off button.” I’ve been remembering what a gift it is to learn this yoga. I feel incredibly grateful to Gurudevi. She poured into me and now I’m saying, “Where am I needed? Where can I pour it out to others?”
I’m inspired to teach yoga again. It’s amazing — time and space are opening up for me.