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About Swami Nirmalananda

Swami Nirmalananda is a teacher of the highest integrity since 1976. In 2009 she was honored with initiation into the ancient order of Saraswati monks. Now wearing the traditional orange, she has openly dedicated her life to serving others. Usually called Gurudevi, she makes the highest teachings easily accessible, guiding seekers to the knowledge and experience of their own Divine Essence.

Finding Your Peace

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda

When I moved into my first home, I wanted to make it a haven from the world. I decorated my small apartment with beautiful budget items and hand-me-downs, and I kept fresh flowers in vases as often as I could. I carefully selected background music that created a soothing and peaceful effect. 

Sometimes it worked and sometimes it didn’t. I found that I was completely capable of being so overwrought that I didn’t notice any of it. Jon Kabat-Zinn named the phenomenon in a book title, Wherever You Go, There You Are. You take yourself with you no matter where you are. 

There is an important problem hidden in my story. If you want your home to be a haven, you actually see the world as being a hostile place. It may be an unrecognized attitude, but it is there. As you become able to recognize this in yourself, you also see how your attitude creates the problems that you encounter as you go through your life. 

I would love to be able to point my finger and blame the rude sales clerk or the belligerent driver. Yet, I know that I have created it, countless times, by my own actions and attitude. The world is a mirror. It reflects you back to yourself. What you put out comes back to you, the way you put it out and the “why” you put it out. 

As a yogi, however, you must look at even a deeper level, called dependency. You depend on the externals to be just right before you can feel peace. What happens to you if your neighbors have a noisy party? With all your doors and windows closed, you can still hear their happy sound. Are you happy that they are happy, or do you…

  — Excerpt from Yoga: Inside & Outside, pages 1‒2

You Are Made of Light

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda

The physicists and yogis agree that it all began with the Big Bang. That bang emanated energy which became light; the light coalesced into matter. This is a vastly simplified explanation, but it is true — everything is made of solidified light. Even your body is made of light. Even the chair that you are sitting on is made of light. 

You probably think that the Bang was an explosion emanating energy and light into the darkness. If so, you’re assuming that darkness is the basis of existence, with light being added to it. The physicists do not describe it this way, but most non-physicists picture it so, without even recognizing that they do. 

The yogic sages make it clear that something existed before the Big Bang. There was something there, a something that banged. That something was not, and is not, darkness. That “something” is the Ever-Existent Reality. It was and is Self-Knowing Beingness, also called Consciousness-Itself. Named by the ancients in their language (Sanskrit), that something is called Shiva. 

Shiva is light, but the word “light” has multiple meanings. Normally it means (1) the opposite of dark, or (2) the opposite of heavy. Both are true of Shiva but, in yoga, “light” means something else: scintillating Presence, radiant Beingness-Itself, Consciousness-Itself, That which Banged. The most important thing to know is — You are That. You are that light, that Presence, that Beingness and Consciousness. You are that which the ancient yogis called “That.” 

The Big Bang was an implosion within Shiva’s own being, which is why energy contracts to become matter. The Big Bang was not an explosion, with light expanding into a field of darkness. It was an implosion, with Shiva contracting within Shiva’s own being, to contract light into matter and bring the universe into existence. Light — not darkness — is the basis of existence. 

Light is important to you because you are made of light. You already know this, not because of a scientific theory or an ancient teaching, as inspiring as they can be. You know this because of your own experience. You feel most like yourself when you are shining with light. When your eyes twinkle, when your heart overflows, when your words have a melody hidden in them, and when your actions show your generous and loving nature — you feel so natural. You feel like yourself. You are radiant with light in those moments. You are your own Self. 

Yoga offers a tried-and-true methodology by which you stop blocking the light of your own being from shining through. When you begin with the physical practices, you are removing the blocks to your body’s natural state of openness. Your body is naturally soft, supple, strong, healthy and resilient, like that of a two-year-old child. The tensions you’ve accumulated since you were two years old are blockages to be removed. When you do some slow breathing and poses to open your spine, you glow afterward. Because the things you do daily are the most powerful, you need to do your yoga breathing and poses daily. If you aren’t removing the blocks, then you are probably installing more of them. 

Yet you do not have to perfect your body in order to have your inner light shine. Even if your body is imperfect, your eyes can shine and your heart can overflow. Yoga’s most powerful effects are the clearing of the blockages from more important levels — your mind and emotions. Clearing these blocks is the primary purpose of yoga’s practices, so your inner light can shine through your mind. 

When you begin aligning your life with the principles of light by following yoga’s precepts for living, that glow shines more brightly and more consistently. When you deepen your inner experience through meditation and chanting, as well as by studying the teachings, you plumb the depths of your own inner essence to discover the source of light within, the light of which you are made.

— Excerpt from A Yogic Lifestyle, pages 25‒25

Three Ways to Get Enlightened 

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda 

You may have heard that enlightenment is easy — “You don’t need any practices, just know who you are. Just know.” Personally, I needed help with that. I needed lots of help! I got the help so I know how it works. After enough preparation, this is what happens: you just know. 

The Shiva Sutras describes this path to enlightenment, called Shambhavopaya. The word names the process: the upaya (path) of cultivating the knowing-feeling (bhava) of being Shiva (Shambho). It is a feeling of downshifting, like leaning back into your multidimensionality, the ease of settling into your own Beingness.

I teach this process in every satsang and course. I lead you past the fragmentation of your mind to a deeper inner dimension. You feel whole. You shine with light. The trick is this: when the program ends, simply continue to experience your own Shivaness. Instead, you might go back to your mind, with its many concurrent agendas.

For those who get ensnared by their mind, another upaya is best – applying your mind to Consciousness. Since it is your mind that blocks your easing into Shiva-Self, you must work with your mind. This is Shaktopaya, the upaya (path) of working with Shakti (the energy of Consciousness-Itself). 

How do you do this? You fill your mind with the energy of Consciousness by repeating the mantra. The mantra given by an authorized teacher emanates the power of Consciousness. Each time you repeat it, it uplifts your mind and mood. You can liken it to clearing the clouds out of your mind so the sunlight of your own Beingness can shine through.

This is a familiar process if you’ve attended one of my satsangs or programs. I formally give the mantra, and explain both its meaning and how to use it. When you take it with you, your progress toward enlightenment continues. But if you climb out of your… 

Subtraction Yoga

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda

You outgrow identities.  Some are already gone, things you used to do but you don’t do anymore.  That’s simply not who you are any longer.  

There probably are some things that mean everything to you now, yet you will outgrow them too.  Things come into your life; things leave.  Sometimes you’re the one who moves on.  

There is one constant reality amidst all that change.  That is an underlying inner essence, what yoga calls your own Self.  You find your own Self only when you practice subtraction instead of addition. 

Most people try to fill their life by adding things: doing this, getting that, going there and everywhere, getting to know new people and learning things.  Most people add and add and continue to add in more and more.  

But yoga fulfills your spiritual hunger in a completely different way.  It is subversive.  It is radical.  It is revolutionary.  Yoga says,

Yeah, you can have all that stuff, but you won’t find happiness in it.  You can’t find satisfaction in it.  You can’t find Self in all that stuff.  You must turn your attention inward.  You must look deeper. 

Some styles of yoga are “addition yoga.”  They add strength to your body.  They add flexibility.  Their system gives you something you don’t currently have. Svaroopa® yoga is a “subtraction yoga.”  With the poses, we move you into angles that unravel deep layers of physical tension.

There are areas of your body that have been locked down for years, areas that are knotted up, stuff that is gnarly and dense.  We begin subtracting the density.  This changes your body, and your mind and feelings are lightened up as well.  

We unravel the tensions to reveal what is hidden underneath — the deep peace that is your nature.  While you begin with your body, you discover an inner happiness that is ever-arising within.  This is a true and profound satisfaction that depends on nothing outside of you.  It is your own deeper sense of Self. 

Yoga is a process of clearing away the stuff you think you are, but that you really are not, so you can find the deeper dimension inside.  This essence that yoga uncovers is called svaroopa, Sanskrit for “your inherent Is-ness.”  Sva- means Self.  

In yoga we distinguish between “small-s self” and “capital-S Self.”  The self with the small “s” is your superficial identity or, unfortunately, multiple identities, which are supported and sustained by your activities in life.  Your capital-S Self is your deeper essence of pure Beingness. 

A yogi shared about her college-age daughter who had finished her summer job and returned to school.  During her summer vacation, she had a real job and apartment and took care of herself.  She lived like an adult for three months but returned to a college dorm.  She was having trouble adjusting.  Her sense of self had been radically altered! 

This shows how your small-s self is based on where you are and what you do: holding down a job and paying rent compared to attending classes and living in a dorm.  Your small-s self will continue to change throughout the whole rest of your life, depending on where you are, who you know and what you do.

Your capital-S Self is the unchanging reality within.  Your svaroopa is the eternal dimension of your own being, your own Divine Essence.  To know and to experience Self is the purpose of all yoga’s practices.  Yoga quiets your mind so that your underlying essence is revealed.

— Excerpt from Yoga: Embodied Spirituality, pages 14‒16

What Is Freedom?

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda

When I was a teenager, I often complained that this didn’t seem to be a free country. If I was free, I should be able to go where I wanted, when I wanted, and do and say what I wanted.

My mother, who carefully controlled all of those things, responded that was not the meaning of freedom. I knew that I didn’t understand her or what I had learned in school about freedom in America. 

Then I lived in Madrid during the time the Spaniards regained their freedom. I had gone to Madrid to help with the opening of a yoga center, and was living and working with Madrileños. I particularly loved my daily commute by bus, surrounded by chatter in a language I could partly understand, driving through beautiful plazas with huge, incredible fountains. 

They were preparing for their first election in 40 years, and every day there were huge political rallies that lasted until the madrugada, the wee hours of the morning. In addition to the political fervor that I recognized from elections in the USA, there was an added element of infectious joy. They were so incredibly happy to regain the right to vote. 

I began to question my idea of freedom. From the many years of schooling in American history to the many years of training in yoga philosophy was a big leap, yet they both spoke so movingly of freedom. I knew that I still didn’t understand freedom. Only with two more decades of yoga practice am I beginning to get it.

The goal in yoga is an ultimate state, described in many different terms, the most important of which is “freedom.” You get a taste of yoga’s freedom in every yoga class. It might happen to you after Seated Side Stretch, when your opening is more than merely physical. Maybe you love Jathara Parivrttanasana (Rotated Stomach Pose) because it seduces you into an irresistible inner depth.

It could happen in a backbend, when the pose stops being such a struggle and you feel like you could lift off and fly. Or maybe one of those seated forward bends makes you melt into something bigger than the universe. 

One of the most reliable places to find it is in Shavasana, especially the closing Shavasana at the end of class. The whole class is a warm-up for the final Shavasana, so you can experience the freedom at the deepest level of your own existence. Mukti — freedom.                                                                                                            

The practices of yoga provide immediate results, which is very important in our hurry-up-must-get-it-now lifestyle. Even your first class makes you feel better than you imagined possible. In the beginning, it appears that the purpose of the class is to fix your body. Familiar pains disappear or are profoundly diminished, and you enjoy a new feeling of profound relaxation and ease.

Most amazingly, you feel both relaxed and energized at the same time — a rare combination! The freedom of comfort and ease in your body is a great freedom, but yoga’s promise doesn’t end with this first blush of success.     

In addition to this feeling in your body, you experience an inner feeling of peace, from the very first class. You feel undeniably calmer on the inside. In the same way that the physical benefits develop further as you continue, this inner sense of peace develops progressively into stithi, an inner stability that supports you in all places and times. This yoga-feeling is inside you, supporting you wherever you go.

— Excerpt from Yoga Inside & Outside, pages 93‒94

Duality is Reality

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda 

Your mind lives in multiple realities simultaneously. In the midst of life, you are often reviewing the past or comparing the present with how you wanted it to be.  You might even write a script in your head, but feel bamboozled when the others don’t follow it.  Your inner experience and outer experience can be wildly incompatible.  This is not duality.  This is delusion.  

Some yogic philosophies say that your whole life is delusion.  Worse, they say the whole world is maayaa, meaning it’s all illusion, like you think you’re seeing water but it is a desert mirage.  Your mind spins out webs that entangle you, causing endless suffering.

Yes, your mind can cause great suffering.  But I recognize your suffering as real.  So is your bliss, once you turn your efforts in that direction. Our yogic tradition honors everything as real, even all the stuff in your mind.  Here is how it works:

Everything that exists does exist.

Everything that doesn’t exist also exists.

Kashmiri Shaivism honors the world as being the formless in form.  Every object and every being is a physical form of the Ultimate Reality, Shiva.  His Divine power of creativity is so amazing that everything he brings to mind actually becomes real.  This universe existed first in Shiva’s mind.  Then he brought it into reality…

Beyond Right & Wrong

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda

Once you know your own Self, it is easy to see the Divinity shing in everyone and everything. Then you cannot label anyone as bad or wrong. Labels disintegrate in the light of Consciousness.

Yet you need not worry that the state of Self-Knowingness is a stage of drunken romanticism. While seeing the Divine in the mundane, you will have clarity about whether something is working well or not. It will be obvious whether someone is focused on their own selfish purposes or giving themselves a higher purpose. You will easily see if they are entrapped in their mind and memories, or if they are living in the reality of the here-and-now. And you will see if they are making mistakes — but it’s OK if they do. After all, how did you learn most of your lessons? You made a few mistakes along the way, too.

It’s easy to understand that, when you become enlightened, you will stop judging others. You will be more understanding. You’ll know when to help and when to back off. That means all you have to do is more yoga and you’ll eventually “get there.” But there is no “there” to get to. It’s all here, right here.

It isn’t enough to merely do yoga, because you need a massive shift in perspective, so that you see life itself as yoga. Relationships are yoga. Food is yoga. This is because yoga is fundamentally about the way you use your mind, which can be yogic or unyogic. It’s time to take yoga off your blankets and mats, to begin addressing your mind. If you cannot yet see God in everything, then at least see that the world is not black and white. It’s time to see the shades of grey. Get beyond the pairs of opposites.

This can be hard if you have always been an achiever. Those who get ahead by getting things right can get stuck in the opposites: “right vs wrong,” working hard to make sure they are always right. Those who have earned other people’s love and respect by always being good can get stuck in the opposites: “good vs bad,” making sure they are always the good one.

Those who learned to win the power struggles are stuck in “my way,” never discovering that others have amazingly good ideas too. Those who found that always being bad or wrong was the way to get their needs met can end up living in this trap for the rest of their life (or even many lifetimes).

Besides the ways you use the pairs of opposites to trap yourself, you also use them to evaluate other people. When you look at your neighbors, family members, or even the other yoga student on the floor next to you, your mind begins comparing. Your mind does this because of Maya, the cosmic power of delusion, making you see this divine world as merely mundane. Maya is the Sanskrit name for Consciousness, when manifesting as the multiplicity of forms and beings in this world. Maya does this by splitting the One into many, by creating the illusion of division and separation. Since your mind is a form of Consciousness, your mind is an agent of Maya. Without you having to do anything to get it going, your mind starts measuring, analyzing, comparing and judging on its own. Everyone’s mind does this.

Different people deal with the results of their analyses in different ways. In comparing yourself with your neighbor, your mind usually finds something wrong, either with them or with you. Whichever direction your mind goes, it puts someone on the bottom of the heap. Your mind usually says one person is worse than the other. This is because the mind’s job is to cut things into pieces — not to respect, uplift or value things. This is the nature of the mind and one of the reasons you must work on it.

Excerpt from A Yogic Lifestyle, pages 8‒10

Aura

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda 

Your energy field extends beyond the edges of your body, often called “aura” by those who can see or feel it.  

This electromagnetic field is emitted by all living things.  It is called prana in Sanskrit.  Prana is the life force that makes your body be a living body instead of a corpse.  Corpses don’t have auras.

Thousands of years ago, yogis described the human aura as part of the cosmic process by which energy becomes matter.  The energy of Consciousness becomes your body and mind, for you to live in and work with.  Yet you are not your body, nor your mind.  You are the one who lives in them and uses them to have experiences and to express your light into the world.

The energy that materializes as your body is named your “subtle body” (sukshma-sharira).  This is where your chakras (energy centers) are found as well as your nadis (energy currents), all 720,000,000 of them.  In Chinese Medicine, nadis are called meridians.

A woman shared about going to an acupuncturist.  He advised that her meridians needed balancing.  They agreed on a plan for 12 weekly treatments. A few days later, she came to a meditation program with my Guru. She decided to stay on for the weekend Shaktipat Retreat.  Reluctantly leaving on Tuesday, she went for her acupuncture appointment. 

The acupuncturist checked her over and said, with a shocked tone, “What have you been doing?”  The woman asked why.  The acupuncturist said, “All your meridians are balanced.  I’ve never seen this happen!”  “Oh,” she said, “I got Shaktipat last weekend.”  The acupuncturist came to meet Baba.

How does Shaktipat do this?  It’s because the “shakti” of Shaktipat is the energy of Consciousness, which is the source of your prana.  Yes, it does mean that your energy field improves with Shaktipat.  It also improves with yoga poses, with breathing practices and with meditation.

In yoga’s poses and breathing practices, you are working with your body.  In meditation, you’re working with your mind. Yet there is more going on.  All the practices actually target your energies, your subtle body. This is a much more powerful level of your multidimensionality.  

As your pranic flows are optimized, physical health and vitality are merely the beginning.  Your mental-emotional energies are uplifted.  Best of all are the spiritual effects, as the subtle dimensions within are opened up for your exploration.  The goal is to…

The Seeds of Your Future

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda

January 1 of any year is no different than other day, except that we agree on a special name for it, “New Years Day.”

The universe did not begin 2000 years ago, so it is really not a “new” year nor a “new” millennium. 

Even the names we give to the days of the week have no real significance. However, more people die of heart attacks on Monday mornings between 3 and 7 am than any other day and time.

Doctors tell us that squirrels die of heart attacks too, but no more of them die on Monday mornings than on other days. That is because squirrels don’t have Mondays. We are affected because we layer meanings onto the names of the days and the activities related to them. They are very real for us — and can even be fatal! 

The New Year and New Millennium is created by the mind, but the mind is incredibly powerful! Your mind creates your reality. You perceive things around you, make decisions and then act upon them, which affects you and the world around you. This is the law of karma — what you do has an effect, what you say has an even stronger effect, and what you think has the strongest effect of all. So what do you think of the New Millennium? Is this all hype, or is it that once-in-a-lifetime opportunity? What you think determines what you will do with it. 

The Shiva Sutras describe the state of an enlightened being: iccha shaktir uma-kumari, — s/he lives in the fullness of knowing of every moment as a divine moment, blossoming with the newness of spring and saturated with the joy of a newborn baby. For such a master, every moment is a golden one. There is no need for an annual rite of new beginnings. But the rest of us need a jump-start. 

You are laying the seeds of your future in what you think and in what you decide to do. If you go to yoga classes, you’ll feel better and be healthier. But if you don’t do yoga, how will you feel in another two years? Your plan may be to let your body get better by itself, but has it so far? You may have already proved to yourself that your body needs some help.

Yoga offers more than physical benefits. It is not merely about how you feel. It is really about who you feel yourself to be. With regular yoga practice, your sense-of-self is found in a deeper inner dimension of reality and is less a function of the circumstances around you. In other words, you develop an inner locus of control — you are less a victim of circumstances. And you may even find some of that “inner bliss” that everyone is talking about! 

When you take yoga classes, you will also improve other people’s lives. One man came to his wife’s graduation from our Teacher Training program and announced that he’d recommended that everyone in his office do yoga. We asked, “Why? You’re not doing it yourself.”

He said, “Yes, but my life has improved so much since my wife began yoga, I figured it would get even better if everyone at work would do it.” This was a smart man. Now, he’s even smarter — he’s doing yoga himself! 

Your future arises from the present; what you are doing right now determines how you will feel later today, tomorrow and the rest of your life. The New Millennium is a golden opportunity — what are you doing with it?

— Excerpt from Yoga in Every Moment, pages 132 ‒ 133 

Tantra Means Loom

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda

Embodied spirituality is built into all our Svaroopa® Sciences.  It’s there from the yoga poses, through your subtle internal processes and especially including your meditative practices.  Svaroopa® yoga is a modern-day expression of the very ancient tradition of tantra. 

Tantra means loom, like a weaver’s loom that interweaves the warp and the woof threads.  It means that you find the infinite in this finite reality.  You discover the Divine which is already present within the mundane.  The tantric sages say that the One Reality, which has always existed, decided to manifest the entire world and everyone in it.  Everything is Shiva being the world as well as being beyond the world. 

The doorway into this tantric tradition is through initiation — Shaktipat.  It is a transmission of energy that awakens your own dormant energy, hidden within.  Your awakened energy then climbs your spine from the tip of your tailbone to the top of your head.  The purpose of all Svaroopa® practices is to awaken and support the blossoming of this spiritual energy in you. 

During meditation, signs of this inner awakening include little swaying movements, even small little jerks that deepen your meditation.  You may feel an inner heat climbing up your spine and spreading through your body.  You can be drawn into a deep and profound meditative state, so deep that it feels like sleep.  It is a deep meditative immersion into Consciousness. 

In your inner explorations, you may see lights, colors and visions, or you may hear divine inner sounds.  Or sudden and profound insights may be revealed.  These are all the results of Shaktipat — the inner awakening.  This is the beginning of embodied spirituality. 

Once you have received Shaktipat, the end goal is guaranteed — enlightenment in this lifetime.  I describe it like this: Once a baby is born, puberty is guaranteed.  Once you receive Shaktipat, realization is guaranteed.  As cosmic energy moves through your spine, it vitalizes your body.  I can’t say revitalize because that would imply you were getting energy you’d previously had.  Rather, this is a vitality you never knew.  Your body undergoes energetic and cellular changes, profoundly beneficial. 

Yet the most important effect is that a profound inner state opens up for you.  Your new inner stability and depth provide additional physical benefits.  Your inner essence is expressed through your body and is experienced in your body, even while there is so much more. 

Svaroopa® yoga poses create and support this process.  Our sequencing always starts at the tip of your tailbone, followed by poses that mirror the inner opening of Shaktipat.  These practices support your inner upliftment, helping to dissolve blockages along the way.  Yet, as powerful, beautiful, wonderful and blissful as the poses are, they are only the starting point. 

Ultimately, the real work is accomplished in meditation.  Meditation is where you let your Divine inner energy move through your spine.  This energy restructures your body and opens up your mind.  Your most powerful practices are mantra and meditation.  They will fulfill the promise of the sages, embodied spirituality:

to know without thought

to BE without effort

to experience without fear or desire

to abide in the Bliss of Consciousness

to live in the multidimensionality of your

own being

to know your own Self as the Divine

Incarnation that you already are.

— Excerpt from Embodied Spirituality, pages 7‒10