By Krishna (Phil) Milgrom
Tharsan Sathyaseelan laughs as he recounts his first experience arriving at Downingtown Yoga and Meditation Center to attend the free Swami Sunday. “I was surprised to see mostly white yogis sitting in the room. I saw Swami. She is white, too!” Of this he says, “I was still stuck in my small-s self, perceiving everyone as separate and different. When I saw the photos of Nityananda and Muktananda, I thought to myself: “OK. Here are Indian sages…” I felt more at ease. I chanted with everyone — I’ve never done that before. I recited the Guru Gita — I didn’t know what the Guru Gita was until then.”
When I first met Tharsan, aka Darshan, I was immediately struck by his unassuming nature, his humility, and a ready smile that shone from deep within. Such a gentle soul.
“I needed help,” he answered, when I asked how he got to that first Swami Sunday. He told me he left Sri Lanka, his birthplace, ten years ago to come to the States, settling in Downingtown. “I came because of the greater freedoms available here,” he said. “I would smoke, drink and party with my American friends. They seemed to be happy.”
But a deeper happiness was being unveiled to Tharsan. Somehow, he was beginning to experience a profound sense of bliss and joy. He had never been so happy before. “I felt then like I was going to be a millionaire,” he elaborated. “I now had everything I wanted in my life. I was in a state of bliss and joy 24/7. So I quit my job.”
This was early in 2017. He was still smoking and drinking with his friends periodically, but he was glowing from something else. His friends started to notice. They thought he was crazy or on drugs. He could not explain where his extraordinary experiences were coming from. “It all seemed to come from nowhere,” he says. “I was learning then about computer networks. I began thinking that all humans are connected some way, too. But I didn’t understand what was going on with me. I started reading books and searching online for answers.”
Tharsan came across online videos of people explaining what they called “Kundalini experiences.” He recognized some of their experiences as similar to his. They mentioned yoga and meditation, but Tharsan had only done a little yoga when he was younger and never meditated. So he ventured into the woods behind where he lived. He explains, “I wanted to experience nature, to know about God. I did a few yoga poses and then Shavasana. I dived deep inside and awoke an hour later.”
“That evening I went home to bed, closed my eyes and saw the most amazingly beautiful sky within. It was a spacious purple and dark blue sky speckled with many colors. I awoke the next morning feeling fully refreshed. I didn’t realize it then, but I had been meditating all night long. That’s why I felt so refreshed.”
“I needed help understanding what was going on. From my Hindu background, I knew about ashrams and what they offer. I thought maybe I could get help from one.” He googled for the ashram closest to where he lived. And that, of course, was Svaroopa® Vidya Ashram. He called and was advised to attend a Swami Sunday.
Tharsan observes, “In retrospect, I knew then that I was being guided by Grace. The Ashram was only ten minutes from where I lived.” Laughing again, he said, “The yoga and meditation center was located directly across the street from the pub where I had been drinking with my buddies!
“After the Guru Gita at my first Swami Sunday there was darshan [an opportunity to see a holy person, in this case Swami Nirmalananda]. I went up to Swami and told her that I needed help understanding my experiences. She said she would see me after the program. So later she approached and asked, ‘How are you?’ I answered, ‘I am having beautiful experiences. I never meditated before. I don’t know what I am doing. I am lost.’”
“Swami explained what had been happening to me. She then gave me mantra. She encouraged me to come to all her free programs: Tuesday evening satsangs, Thursday morning Guru Gita satsangs, and Swami Sundays.
“I attended these for two or three weeks; then Swami gave me the mantra again, gave me mala beads and an asana. I didn’t know what an asana was. It was a beautiful red silk cloth that I was to sit on for meditation practice. She told me she infused the asana with her energy. She asked me to repeat mantra three hours a day while sitting on the asana.”
Tharsan immediately set up a place in his room to meditate, and repeated the mantra three hours daily. In a few days, his body shook during meditation. “I didn’t know where these physical movements were coming from,” he says. “But I had faith in Swamiji, so I continued meditating. It was very intense.” The next Sunday he told Swamiji about the shaking. “She told me my Kundalini was awakening. She said she is a Kundalini Master.”
Tharsan was thrilled. Then, in September 2017, he attended a Shaktipat weekend with Swamiji. It was the icing on the cake. He recalls, “Before that, when I meditated, I wasn’t going deeper. Shaktipat got me going deeper. I realized the awareness within me was Me, my Self. I didn’t know before that there was a small self and a higher Self. I now understood the play of the mind and play of ego, and who was having all these experiences and identities. It was Me, my higher Self. All my experiences now made sense.”
Tharsan was no longer lost. He had googled “ashram,” found his Guru, and through her, found his Self. Tharsan continues to this day working for the Ashram. He is also a Lyft driver part time. Next time you need a ride to or from Downingtown, call Tharsan. You will definitely get a lift. His glow is contagious.

By Gurupremananda (Lynn) Cattafi
We were informed this was the last morning that the Brahmin priests would bathe Nityananda’s murti using the traditional panchamrit (five nectars: milk, yogurt, honey, ghee and sugar). For a while, they would be using water only to protect its metal surface. Part-way through the ceremony, we saw the head priest looking around the assembled devotees.
He finally sent an assistant out in the crowd, who walked around looking for someone. Finally he came over to Swamiji and asked, “Are you a Swami?” She nodded, and he told her to accompany him behind the gates to Nityananda’s murti. The head priest explained this unusual request to Swamiji: “Nityananda is asking for you to be the one to bathe him with the panchamrit.” Swamiji was honored, humbled and absolutely ecstatic. The other Brahmins, however, were quite surprised that a woman — a Westerner to boot — was being given this great honor.
Most astonishing, during our Vowed Member retreat in Ganeshpuri this past December, another Brahmin priest, Santosh, referred to Swamiji as Sadguru during the opening mantras at each of our two yaj~nas. Many of you met Santosh when he officiated at our August “Shiva Arrives” event. Again, Ramesh referred to Swamiji as Sadguru during the opening mantra of a special group ceremony a few weeks later in Ganeshpuri.
I am blessed to share with you the ever-expanding depth of our beloved Satguru, Swami Nirmalananda Saraswati. In the coming weeks, on articles, books and more, you will begin seeing her credited as “Sadguru Swami Nirmalananda Saraswati.”
By Tattvananda Richards
Two physical buildings house the Ashram: Lokananda, “Place of Bliss” and Shivaloka, “Place of Shiva.” Lokananda is your retreat facility. Its walls and furnishings are saturated with the sweet vibrations of immersion programs. Immediately upon arrival, you feel shrama, your accumulated world weariness, dissolving. You are freed and open to receive new learning and significant life changes. Shivaloka is Swamiji’s home. It’s filled with photographs of our lineage, saturated with mantra and vibrating with Grace. From this base, she offers us the ancient, transformative teachings of yoga. She invites us in to be steeped in these profound practices.
Yet the practicalities of all this need support. We have physical structures, technological structures, staff and organizational processes. They all need to run well as well as to grow as we grow. Our beloved Swamiji provides the Grace and teachings. She gives us more than enough to reach into our family, friends and the world beyond — and beyond that. Being a yogic monk, Swamiji gives this amazing bounty to us without compensation. So we must be practical as well as mystical.
Making the pledge was like buying a pair of shoes that cost more than I planned on. Wearing these shoes, I feel how they support my back and body in a way that I need. They perfectly support my work in the world. I will adjust my budget elsewhere. It’s the same with increasing my monthly donation to the Ashram. I feel how my gift supports my yogic path — and yours. The sense of being on this path together is a special kind of spiritual security and bliss.
By Lajja Mitchell, SVA Board Member
This profound change in my outlook is due to Swamiji’s teachings. They have awakened me to my own Self. She says it is “the mystery that is hidden inside every human heart and being.” This perspective informs all of Swamiji’s teaching. Warm, lighthearted and down-to-earth, she makes the mystical teachings accessible through examples from our everyday lives and relationships. I am forever grateful to experience this Grace through her teachings and presence.
If you have not yet increased your monthly gift — or made a monthly pledge — please consider how the practices of Svaroopa® Sciences have benefited you. Of course, there is no way to give back for the Grace we receive. But you can promise yourself to express your gratitude by supporting the Ashram operations that make possible Swamiji’s work in the world.
By Swami Nirmalananda
I chanted a Puranic text, one with ever-changing Sanskrit words, one I knew from my early days of training. The chanting book I used has Sanskrit lettering — no English letters! Not being very good at the Devanagari, I caught myself cheating within the first few lines. I’d figure out the first word or two and then chant the rest of the line from memory. It wasn’t creating any healing for me. I decided I would not let the sound come out of my mouth unless my eyes saw the Sanskrit letter, my mind took it in and figured out the sound. Only then did I voice it.
Research has proven this to be true. Herb Benson proved that meditation lowers high blood pressure; Jon Kabat-Zinn proved it helps cure cancer and other life-threatening diseases. But the sages knew it long ago. Krishnamacharya’s discovery of the Yoga Karunta gives a 12th century source that says yoga is about healing, health and longevity. The Hatha Yoga Pradipika, usually dated at 300+ AD, states that the poses are to prepare you for meditation.
By Swami Nirmalananda Saraswati
The city tweeted, on their verified account, “As we process the gut-wrenching act of violence that took place this evening in a place of peace in our community…” This clearly speaks to the value that yoga offers to our modern-day world and the official acknowledgement of it. But it doesn’t protect the yoga studios from the growing violence in these turbulent times.
Hold a special program in their honor. I will be dedicating our satsang to them on Tuesday night.
By Shuchi (Sue) Cilley
Swami Nirmalananda’s teaching is infused with Grace, the cosmic power revealing your own inherent Divinity. Her words describing the experience of Self help me understand. Yet it’s actually the experience of Self, to which she opens me, that enlivens the words.
In MTT, I’ve written and given a lot of mini-talks. They are valuable preparation towards putting together the talks I deliver when I teach. In my first MTT, I had no idea we’d be writing anything. I showed up with a notebook and pencils. Those in the tech stream showed up with electronic devices.
By Gurupremananda Cattafi, SVA Board President
Is this true for you? Consider how these profound teachings have deepened your inner experience of your own Self. Maybe you experience a level of inner ease and peace of mind, that even affects your life decisions. Even if you want to, it’s not possible to repay this gift of dawning enlightenment. Yet we must find a way to honor and support the work of Sadguru Swami Nirmalananda, which so deeply benefits ourselves and our world.
Your gift has a twofold impact. It ensures that Swami Nirmalananda’s teachings reach you as well as others, extending far and wide to other seekers. It is also a profound yogic practice, whereby you invite yoga into your wallet, extending Grace into this important part of your life. Your financial gifts give you as much benefit as your daily meditation or poses, or even more.
By Aanandi Ross
Admittedly, sometimes it isn’t easy. Yet I see that my task is to stay with it. I breathe into it, softening the densities in my mind. As Swamiji has taught, I return to the vehicle of enlivened mantra. I trust the process, and mantra takes me back to my Self. Throughout life’s ebbs and flows, these practices continue to transform me. Over time, their effects settle into me more and more, anchoring into the very depths of being.
By Bindu Shortt
