Early in my yoga career with Swamiji, I learned that life tells us to look outward, while yoga tells us to look inward. At first it was the inner experience of a quiet mind, and the many gifts of final Shavasana—the MORE. Later it became the experience of my tailbone wiggling and sacrum rocking.
Now years later, the looking has shifted to me experiencing my Self as Consciousness on the inside—another major and deeper U-Turn, one that my mind has trouble handling with ease. Mysteries are difficult for my mind. Meditation and the movement of Kundalini provide breakthrough experiences of timelessness, spacelessness, the unending flow of Grace and love from Swamiji that makes my heart expand and expand—all experiences beyond the limits of my mind.
Now there is the opportunity to celebrate the ancient tradition that provides the guidelines for how to do these deeper U-Turns. In the ancient words of Sages and the current words of our modern Sage, Swamiji, I will offer the celebration of Shivaratri. While each day I bow to my Shivalingam and Nandi that sit on my puja, on the Night of Shivaratri I will do puja to my Shivalingam for three hours, celebrating the mystery of Shiva. Each day I wear the garland of my rudraksha beads, but on the night of Shivaratri I will wear the three strips of white on my forehead and quietly celebrate the mystery of Shiva—the formless who has taken form in everything that exists, in all my students and clients, in my yoga buddies, in my yoga teachers, in me, in all that exists and beyond, as Swamiji reminds us. Thank you, Swamiji, for teaching us how to do puja and how to celebrate Shivaratri as well as guiding us through our successive and deeper U-Turns.