So Close, Yet So Far

By Satguru Swami Nirmalananda

You know the feeling so well — it’s not time yet.  I felt that way near the end of my senior year in high school, nearly done and yet going to school every morning.  And that ninth month of pregnancy lasts much more than four weeks, right? 

Here we are again.  They tell us that the COVID-19 vaccines will be available for everyone in the USA within 5 weeks.  It might take a little longer to get them all distributed, but life is certainly going to change soon.  When?  We don’t know.  How?  We don’t know.  What do you want it to be?  You probably don’t know that either.

Ideally, your yoga taught you how to be good at “I don’t know.”  You’ve experienced it when doing a yoga class or set of poses.  You simply don’t know how your body is going to be until you get into the flow of it.  Ditto for meditation.  When you sit, you don’t know what’s going to happen inside.  All you know is that, by the end, you’ll be better.  Guaranteed.  What an amazing guarantee this is!

I’m treasuring these last few weeks of cocooning.  It’s a precious time with dear ones.  For me, I’ve been cocooned with five more swamis.  It’s been an amazing way to deepen their process, especially in the first year since they took sannyasa initiation.  We just have a few days more.  It’s so sweet.

I can feel the undercurrents, subtle stirrings that will blossom forth with the spring.  Our first crocus popped out today.  More are on the way.  Similarly, our first group of yogis came in for a retreat last week.  Masked and distanced, we had an incredible time — deep and profound, fun and bliss-filled.  Another group comes in a couple of weeks.  Yep, the momentum is starting to build.

But it’s not time yet.  It’s close, so close… but not today.  Maybe not tomorrow or the next day.  So what do you do?  Live in the present.  The future will come whether you want it to or not.  Be here now.

1 thought on “So Close, Yet So Far

  1. Babhru

    The funny part of the yogic statement ” be in the present” is that there and here and anywhere else anytime from the times of creation is no other state of Being available. Only Now. Period.
    It’s only available inside our minds. The past the future and in between is not real, as well aren’t many other “real” things. It’s all our minds’s modulations.
    Just simple mental realization of this matter of fact may trigger cascading processes on clearing mental obstacles toward enlightenment.
    Namaste everyone.


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