By Kumuda (Karen) Schaub, interviewed by Matrika Gast
Before taking a Shaktipat Retreat with Swami Nirmalananda, I’d always felt that discipline was punishment. Now I understand that the discipline of Svaroopa® Vidya practices is a kindness to myself. It is deep support for my internal process. Having received Shaktipat from Swamiji yearly since 2013, I’m eagerly anticipating my fifth in October.
My first was quite surprising. I’d been a yoga student for about three years when my teacher mentioned Shaktipat. She casually asked, “Do you want to come?” With each new Svaroopa® yoga experience over time, I knew it was what I needed. So, even though I didn’t know exactly what to expect with Shaktipat, I signed up.
At the beginning, I knew nothing about the Guru or the Guru’s function. I knew nothing about her Guru, Baba Muktananda, nor his Guru, Bhagawan Nityananda. I now know this is our lineage of Shaktipat Gurus. It is the source of transformative power and Grace.
Rooted in this lineage, Swamiji gave Shaktipat three different times in the retreat. With the first, I felt that she had reached through my whole spine and into my tailbone. Physically, my tailbone was painful. I wanted to be anywhere except sitting on my stack of blankets for meditation!
At lunch Swamiji said, “It’s like childbirth. The pain has a purpose.” For me, the laser beam of Shaktipat into my tailbone initiated profound changes. When I returned home, I was different. Even though a beloved pet died a few weeks afterward, I navigated that process in a new way. I was more able to be present with the pain and sorrow instead of reacting against it or retreating. Again, I knew that this Svaroopa® Vidya path had given me exactly what I needed.
After my second Shaktipat Retreat, I felt that everything inside was different. I had shifted. I thought, I don’t know what to do with myself. Then I thought, That’s right. To live from Self is different. The doors to my Self had blown open. And at my third Shaktipat Retreat, these doors opened to a vision of the whole galaxy. I realized this is what is inside.
With each Shaktipat, the effect was more subtle and more profound. The uncovering of my deep Self continues to be a revelation. Every time, there’s more of that for me to experience, more of what I never knew was there. The More.
I have come to know that these immersions bring me into the process of deep excavation. It unpacks the things I’ve carried with me for lifetimes. It can be painful. Yet I know that it’s only painful because my “small-s” self wants to avoid those things that are so deep. Ultimately, this process is joyful.
So I keep doing my practices, and talking with myself about what I really want. I want to know the Self all the time. Now I know Self in my meditation, in my little home and talking to another yogi. But I want to know it at my job, at the grocery store and while taking out the garbage. My mind can’t quite wrap itself around what it means to be Enlightened.
Yet through Shaktipat Retreats I’ve experienced beautiful glimmers of my Self. Being That all the time is an amazing goal. Shaktipat continues to create big openings, more space, more room within. I am then able to settle into my Self in a different way.

My practices have evolved into a steadfast discipline in the last six months. Until then, practice first thing in the morning was not always a priority. My “to do” list would sometimes take precedence; I would get lost in the shuffle. But with steady practice now, I guarantee time in the morning for Ujjayi Pranayama, asana (poses) and meditation. When possible, I add chanting of Sri Guru Gita. If not, I chant it on the way to work, or sometimes at work. These practices support my state, integrating the experience of Self into daily life.
My appreciation and gratitude for the ability to be in my life in this way — in relationship with a Guru who is there for me without fail — is immense.

Ute Mazel-Reeves, interviewed by Matrika Gast
From Swami Nirmalananda’s deep teachings, I recognized what was going on for me. I was in fear of annihilation (anavamala). This is the all-too-human limitation that blocks our knowing of our own Self. Maya creates the swirl of the external world of objects and experiences (through Her kanchukas, Her powers), further covering that inner knowing. Anavamala drives us to construct identities for our small-s self.
It feels like progress; the fog is lifting. My path is clearer, with Guru as my guide. I foresee new understandings forming. I am learning how I can express myself from the authentic place of my Self. To let go of constructed identifies, I am exploring their remnants. Meditating, japa and chanting Sri Guru Gita give me the lifeline for which I’ve been reaching.
By Addie Alex
“After a few sessions,” Claudia describes, “I began to feel the change in my body. Over the next two months, with twice weekly Yoga Therapy sessions and daily yoga practice at home, I stopped going to Physical Therapist, the chiropractor and acupuncture.”
By Swami Nirmalananda

By Karuna (Carolyn) Beaver
Our Shaktipat tradition gives us the gift of an enlivened mantra, infused with the power and Grace of our lineage. I am grateful to be part of this lineage of meditation masters. Because I’ve received the gift of Kundalini awakening from Swami Nirmalananda, mantra fills me up. Filled from the inside, I’m transported into the bliss of my own being.
By Janaki Murray
Vidyadevi & Swamiji said, “When a desire arises, don’t indulge it. Channel that energy into your quest for Consciousness. Consciousness is reliable.” I am grateful for this coaching on the practice of pratyahara (withdrawing the senses). I don’t find it easy, but it helps me deal with desires. It helps quiet my mind and facilitates my inward journey.
By Swami Nirmalananda Saraswati
An impressive list of qualifications — this is what makes a Guru worth meeting or spending time and studying with. Their teachings must be consistent with the ancient sources, yet they teach from their own experience as well as intellectual knowledge. Thus, they are not teaching mere theory, nor are they making it up. Also, the Guru is devoted to his own Guru, which means he had a Guru — no self-appointed teachers. His inner state must be steady, the attainment promised by all the yogic texts.
By Krishna Milgrom
With steady practice, and less effort, Plow has become relaxing and restful. When I settle into the pose, it becomes blissful. Following the pink sheet instructions, I come out of the pose gently. Instead of hurling my legs back to the floor as I used to do, I secure my lower back with my palms and bring one leg at a time to the wall. With both feet on the wall and knees bent, I lay my arms alongside me as in Shavasana. Then I slowly roll my back to the floor. Ahhhhh! What bliss! As each vertebra unfolds one by one, my spine pops and crackles with released energy. Bliss streams from my tailbone through my heart and into my skull.
By Marti Monk
I’ve taken Foundations, the five-day immersion training, twice. As this yoga continues to transform my heart, I feel better in a way that I can’t fully explain. And I don’t quite yet know the value of this change. In the world of my brain that’s skilled in writing grant proposals, “bliss” means happiness and satisfaction. But the experience of Bliss found through Svaroopa® yoga is something more. When we talked about Bliss with Vidyadevi in the May workshop, I and my three yoga buddies had just been (with about 8 other classmates) in Rotated Stomach Pose. So I was remembering that, on one side, I had sensed Theresa’s hand next to mine. On the other side, Betsy patted my hand. As we talked about Bliss, Shan, who seldom speaks in discussion, described Bliss as what she was experiencing in the workshop: “Beyond all the details, there’s the sense of Oneness.”
By Bindu Shortt
