A Deeper Knowing Awakened

By Judy (Jagruti) Goodkin

Interviewed by Lissa (Yogyananda) Fountain, Yogaratna

Hearing Gurudevi Nirmalananda’s teachings on Swami Sundays is like getting a booster shot of the Self.  Recently, Gurudevi said she’d received Shaktipat from her Baba over 200 times.  And if he were still in his body, she’d still be getting Shaktipat from him.  Hearing this filled me with an ongoing inspiration.  If Gurudevi would still get Shaktipat, why wouldn’t I?

It had been a year since my last Shaktipat Retreat in 2021.  My sadhana (personal practice) was neither moving forward nor moving me deeper within.  Yet I knew Shaktipat could get me through whatever was keeping me blocked.  Also, I felt a strong need to be in Gurudevi’s presence.  So I signed up right away for the On-Site program last May. 

Being surrounded by many deep yogis and swamis was so supportive.  After I received Shaktipat, the swamis’ talks helped me understand the experiences I was having.  For instance, in meditation, my thoughts can feel heavy.  They are just words.  But when I attach a story to them, they get me in the mud!  But they are just words.

I also have a new appreciation for how Kundalini (meditative energy) works on my emotions.  While in meditation, if an emotion comes up, I can sit with it and feel it.  It has a purpose: Kundalini is burning through it.  Since Shaktipat, I don’t have to pursue my emotions or thoughts in meditation.  They no longer draw me out.  Now experiencing them can draw me in deeper.

Swami Nirmalananda giving Shaktipat

Receiving Shaktipat has had a profound effect on my everyday life.  I used to think enlightenment happened with a  “boom” all at once!  Now I see it is a process.  I’m becoming more aware of a gradually deepening inner knowing.  Gurudevi explains:

After Shaktipat, even when your mind returns to its familiar pattern, the deeper knowing is awakened and is always there.

Recently, I attended a street fair with my family.  For some reason, I was getting more and more frustrated, annoyed and judgmental.  I sat down on the curb and acknowledged my feelings.  I began repeating mantra to myself.  I could see what was happening as separate from my usual kneejerk reactions.  I was able to stop my small-s self emotions.  They couldn’t pull me where I didn’t want to go.  Mantra shifted my state immediately.  When I’m in capital-S Self, I can soften.  I notice my relationships softening as well. 

At the end of my Shaktipat Retreat, our assignment was to increase our meditation time.  This felt challenging, as asana is always easier for me.  Yet I am gradually working up to an hour.  Now I really like meditation.  I look forward to it every day.  But it is my journaling that has changed the most.  After meditation, Gurudevi always says, “Now is a good time to journal.”  I used to stare at the blank page not knowing what to say after meditations.  Now, the words just flow out of me!  As Gurudevi promises, and through her Grace, I am still experiencing profound changes.  They are ongoing, getting deeper and deeper, and better and better!


Embodying the Teachings

By Ruth (Rama) Brooke, interviewed by Lori (Priya) Kenney

After taking Meditation Teacher Training (MTT), I felt I was embodying the teachings.  I gained a depth of knowing that I didn’t have before.  It was experiential knowing, beyond the intellectual knowing I had previously.

This in-depth course is amazing.  Every afternoon, we got a cosmic download from Gurudevi.  She gave us the deeper teachings.  Every day, we steeped in the shakti (energy) and Grace of the Guru.  During evenings, we wrote a 10-minute discourse to deliver to fellow students the next day.  We put into our own words what we learned and understood from the afternoon’s download.

I had just opened a larger studio space in 2015.  The timing of the upcoming MTT course was perfect.  I was making a bigger commitment to teaching.  I knew that I wanted to teach meditation.  I also knew the course would deepen my own practice.

I had already been meditating for nearly eight years.  My daily practice was pretty regular.  But MTT took my meditation experiences to a whole new level.  My understanding of Kashmiri Shaivism and Svaroopa® Vidya meditation expanded considerably.  And my understanding of the purpose of Shaktipat and the Guru deepened profoundly.

The experiential learning I received in MTT has made it so much easier to teach.  My new depth and knowledge turned into deeper experiences even for my asana students.  Most who took the meditation course had profoundly deep experiences.  Some have maintained a home meditation practice since.  Some repeat the course nearly every time I offer it.  I continued my training in the Meditation Group Leader course so I can also offer satsangs.  Students who took my three-class “Learn to Meditate” series now attend my satsangs regularly.

MTT gave me a whole new level of confidence and deepened my teaching.  It even boosted my confidence to speak in front of groups in general, whatever the topic.  I used to get the jitters just speaking to a small group of three or four people.  But MTT changed that.  For me, MTT was transformative in many ways.

Immediately after MTT, I offered a meditation course to my students, continuing with a couple each year.  While I wasn’t able to offer them during the pandemic, I am planning to start again this fall.

Teaching Yoga

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda 

When you learn to teach others, you learn more deeply.  Why does this happen?  It’s because you care about helping other people, so you put more of yourself into your learning.  When you put more of yourself in, you get more out of what you do.  It’s true of everything in life and it works the same way in yoga.  But what you get from yoga is more of your Self.  By giving, you receive.

In Yoga Teacher Training (YTT), we make sure you know how to handle different kinds of bodies as well as different kinds of minds.  When you put your new tools to work, and you really see how yoga works, you become ever more inspired.  You truly can make a change in peoples’ lives.

I love watching new teachers transform.  After your very first training, you begin teaching right away.  Of course, when you do something a few times, you get better at it.  The real surprise comes when you realize your own students are inspiring you.  

They sleep better.  They stand taller, walk stronger and breathe more deeply.  They are less fazed by life’s surprises and more able to find answers that work.  I remember the first time a student said to me, “My back doesn’t hurt anymore.  I can pick up my grandchildren again.”  She was delighted!  So was I!

I decided to focus on teaching teachers over 30 years ago.  I could see that the world needed more of what yoga offers even back then.  It’s true now, too.  I’ve trained over 3,000 teachers, from the beginning to advanced levels.  When they share what they know, we are working together to transform and uplift the world.

Do you want to become a yoga teacher?  Now is the time…

Chant & Meditate with a Master

Meditate with Gurudevi Nirmalananda on Wednesday evenings.  She leads our evening program, which features a long chant and meditation.  Live music accompanies the chant in the traditional yoga style.  Everyone else singing along and printed words make chanting easy.   

Then Gurudevi guides the meditation, making it easy for newcomers as well as deep for everyone.  You explore the multiple dimensions of your own being. 

Attending Gurudevi’s satsang in person, I feel blanketed by profound stillness.

— Barbara B 

Join us On-Site in Downingtown for free.  Or enroll in our online Yoga Wednesday (bookends or full day); this program is included. 

Chant the Guru Gita in Your Home! 

By Amanda (Purna) Schmidt 

Bring a daily Ashram practice to your home with the Honored Guru Gita CD.  Daily chanting of this essential text steeps you in Grace.  Gurudevi’s guidance makes this practice accessible and joyful.  The melody helps you find the rhythm of your breath and the Sanskrit words. 

Free verse-by-verse pronunciation lessons are available online.  In addition, all copies of the CD ordered in July come with a BONUS.  You will receive a handout of the text, which includes Gurudevi’s English translation.  You will be chanting the entire text in no time!  Bring Honored Guru Gita into your home practice, and let Grace carry you deeper. Price: $19.95  

CD Tracks 

1. OM svaroopa svasvabhavah namo namah 

2. Om Guru Mere Guru, Jaya Guru Om 

3. Guru Padukaa-Panchakam 

4. Shree Guru Geeta 

5. Shree Krishna Govinda 

6. Universal Prayer 

7. Jaya Jaya Aratee Nityanaanada 

Freedom

By Gurudevi Nirmalananda

Having grown up in America, freedom was an ideal that inspired me.  As a kindergartener, I made pilgrim hats out of black construction paper, representing the Pilgrims who were seeking religious freedom.  I was heartened by the preamble to the Constitution which I learned in third grade.  It cites goals of union, justice, liberty and peace.  Thus I was ready when I found yoga and learned that the goal is freedom.  I felt an immediate resonance with it. 

I didn’t understand what freedom was.  As a teenager, I wanted a superficial freedom:  an escape from my parents (seemingly) unreasonable demands and expectations.  Once I started managing my own life, I wanted freedom to do what I wanted, as well as the freedom to do nothing at all if I chose.  None of these are the freedom that yoga promises. 

As important as freedom and social justice are, neither of these is yoga’s focus. Individual yogis may choose to focus there, as did Mahatma Gandhi in India 100 years ago.  He successfully used yogic ideals as a launching pad for political goals.  His work also inspired Rev. Martin Luther King in his world-changing mission.

Yogic freedom is an inner experience, not something you project into the world or ask of it.  It is also called liberation.  Consider this:  if the goal is liberation, it means you are currently in bondage.  

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Your bondage is internal.  It’s about who you think you are compared to who you really are.  These two fundamental principles of yoga are clearly summarized in the primary text of Kashmiri Shaivism.

Chaitanyam-aatmaa

Consciousness-Itself is your own Self.

J~naanam bandha.h

The not-knowing (of your Self) is bondage.

— Shiva Sutras 1.1-2

translation by Gurudevi Nirmalananda

These sutras define the mystical quest.  Sutra 1 divulges the secret of your inherent Divinity.  Sutra 2 explains that you don’t know your inherent Divinity.  It’s a conundrum.  It’s the cosmic game of hide and seek: you are hiding while you are also the one seeking your own Self.  Like a dog chasing its tail, you go round and round for lifetimes.

This text guides you through a process that begins with Shaktipat, the initiation that activates the arising of Consciousness within you.  After that, how long it takes for you to get enlightened is up to you.  Your own blossoming forth is assured, just like daffodils that will bloom in the spring, but you don’t know when spring will come.  The text gives you ways to push it along.

Gurudevi Teaches on Sundays

Join Gurudevi Nirmalananda for her Swami Sunday meditation program.  She includes chanting, sutras and teachings from the ancient tradition as well as meditation instruction.  Each step is not only effective but also delicious.  Gurudevi’s traditional satsang format prepares you for a deep and easy meditation.  Know your own Self better by the end of the morning. 

Participating in the now familiar ritual of Swami Sunday guides my week, eases my mind, opens my heart, joins me to the community and settles me into my Self through the Grace of the Guru. — Peter G. 

No Separation

By Marie (Shubhaa) McRee

Interviewed by Lori (Priya) Kenney

I am a devotee of Jesus Christ.  I hadn’t understood how a Guru fit.  When Gurudevi stood in front of me during the May Shaktipat Retreat, I knew.  Her thumb on my third eye was a vast opening to Divine communion.  There was no separation.  I was an individual, but I experienced a state beyond the individual.

Meditation has always drawn me, but it has been somewhat elusive.  During Shaktipat, I entered a deep place of meditation.  Kundalini naturally straightened my posture as Gurudevi put her hand on me.  My body was so still; I was immersed in a profound stillness.  I was aware that I was in a body, but my awareness was beyond the body.  The taste of that was absolutely incredible.

Even so, after we had received Shaktipat twice, I could feel myself contracting and fragmentation threatening.  I did not want to lose this state of Grace.  I went up to Swami Samvidaananda and asked to talk.  The expansiveness of her words allowed my mind to rest in the experience of Shaktipat.  Receiving Shaktipat synthesized Christian mysticism, yoga and all my experiences of the Divine.  It went beyond any doctrine and was the unity of all that is Divine.

This is something I’ve been seeking a very long time.  My relationship with Gurudevi goes back before 2006.  I was simultaneously being drawn to the deep nature connection movement.  In 2011, Gurudevi said I needed to make a choice.  I had to choose between deepening my studies with her and continuing my nature mentoring focus; inside or outside.

A notice about Gurudevi’s December 2021 San Diego retreat called to me.  It was partly due to some knee issues.  But there was also something incomplete in having stepped away from her.  Because of my decision to pursue nature connection in 2011, I asked Samvidaananda if it was alright to attend in La Jolla.  She said, “All are welcome.”

The first night of the December retreat, I had a realization.  My current yogic practice was not compatible with what Gurudevi was offering through Svaroopa® yoga.  During the week, I experienced a tremendous place of fearless expansion.  That retreat drew me to Shaktipat in May and brought me back into this yoga of bliss.  It also gave me big appreciation for Gurudevi’s clear and practical advice.  She guides us in flawlessly integrating yoga, family and spirituality.

After Shaktipat, I returned home to a lot of activity.  I was aware of a lightness.  It felt like I wasn’t carrying the karma I usually carry when I’m pushing my edge.  Inside I found deep wisdom and clarity, accessible as needed.  It felt like protection and guidance in every moment.  Going within, I knew what to do on the outside.  My gratitude is immense for this never-ending gift of Shaktipat.  Offered by Gurudevi through the lineage of Svaroopa® yoga, this gift gave me an experience of my own Self.


Taking MTT Shifted Me

by Chelsea (Rajni) King 

Meditation Teacher Training (MTT) was a turning point in my experience and understanding of the Svaroopa® sciences.  MTT’s length and depth settled me into a more expansive state than ever before.  I vividly remember feeling so deep and comfortable in my own Self.  It was a profound immersion in Consciousness.  

Steeping in the experience of Gurudevi’s teachings was an amazing process.  For 11 days, we marinated in the teachings and practices.  It was all easy, organic and natural.  As Gurudevi rendered the teachings and sutras of our lineage, I took notes.  Then we meditated.  With each day, I settled more and more into the state the sutras were describing.

I hadn’t thought to bring my computer to take notes and write talks.  I did everything the old fashioned, handwritten way, which helped Gurudevi’s teachings sink in.  The process of hearing the teachings and then handwriting the notes was deep and effective.  After dinner, I felt thoroughly prepared to write my talks for the next day.  They just poured out onto the paper.  

After MTT, my understanding and teaching of asana shifted and made me a better asana teacher.  As a Certified Svaroopa® Yoga Teacher, I had been teaching yoga classes for more than a decade.  The reason for the way we teach asana became absolutely clear.  The purpose of Svaroopa® yoga is to settle into Self.  

This yoga’s customized propping and precise angles in poses reliably open our spines so Kundalini can move.  I understood it in a way I hadn’t before.  I realized that it isn’t about the body, it is about the state.  Even though I had heard it over and over again, I hadn’t had the deep, tangible experience of Self that MTT gave me.  It was undeniable. 

My meditations were forever changed after MTT.  It solidified my daily practice and made it easier to sit every day.  Learning how to teach others to meditate is a great incentive to making sure that I’m doing the practices that I’m teaching.  The tangible Grace flowing through this lineage propels me on the path.  Teaching others to meditate is a gift.  I am so blessed to be a modern-day representative of this ancient tradition!

Why a Vowed Order?

I created our Vowed Order because I saw so many yogis who wanted to give more of themselves.  Why did they feel that way?  They had already figured out that when you give more of yourself, you get more of your Self.  In this way, yoga works like everything else.  When you give, you get more than if you merely try to receive.

No one has to take vows to do Svaroopa® yoga or meditation.  You can study with me for free, or you can dive into the tuition-based immersions and courses if you want more.  You can come and go as frequently or infrequently as you like.  I welcome you with all my heart whenever you give me a chance to connect with you.  I’m delighted to see you!

But those who want more need to be met where they are at.  The power of your yearning touches my heart.  I will help you fulfill it completely if you allow me to do so.  That’s what I got from my Guru.  He gave me what I wanted.  He gave me God.

Nothing else would satisfy me.  I already knew that by the time I met Baba.  I’d tried everything else and proved it didn’t work for me.  Most swamis have a checkered past, which is one reason we understand others without judgment.  I wanted God but couldn’t find him anywhere.

Baba showed me that God is everywhere!  That includes inside as well as outside.  And inside is the closest place to find God – an intimate and intensely personal experience.  That was what I wanted.  That is what I got and live in now.  

You’re not going to get there unless you apply both your head and your heart.  Vows engage both fully.  From the moment you take the vow, you are changed.  That change grows in you, blossoming like a flower, expanding you into your own inherent Divinity.

But a vow is not enough by itself.  You can make a vow, anytime and anywhere, all by yourself.  It’s powerful.  I highly recommend it!  But when you’re in a Vowed Order, you share your depth of commitment with others in the same process.  That makes it an inside-outside and an outside-inside process, which is necessary if you want to make it all the way.  Any part of yourself that you leave out of the process isn’t going to shine with light.

Being in relationship is such an important part of life.  However, if your yearning is strong, your nearest and dearest may not understand you.  The other vowed yogis do.  They meet you there.  That means sometimes you are laughing together, and sometimes crying together.  And sometimes you push each other’s buttons.  Then you turn around and help when someone needs help.  It’s real.  It’s life.  And it’s all about God.  This is what I call yoga.